Thursday, December 15, 2011
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Sick of It
Alright, sorry world, but I cannot stand the two tards (I'll use this terminology rather than their names). For some reason, a reason that I cannot understand AT ALL, everybody loves them! Is it because they're smart? Is it because they're witty?! Well, if I now live in a world that values only wit and intelligence, then kill me now. I don't know how it's not obvious to others how truly egocentric and narcissistic they really are. Is it because the world only values intelligence or an impression of intelligence that it decides to dig a deep hole in the sand and bury it's head as far under as possible so as not to see the truth? Or maybe the world just values their obvious wealth and that's why it turns a blind eye? After all, money talks, so why shouldn't this be the case here?
I'm going to stop with that part of the subject and focus on the other. I don't loathe the two tards for the reason that they are rich or smart; in fact, I actually really liked them before, until I discovered the real sides of them. Contrary to popular belief, through personal experience I have found that they are both immensely shallow and egocentric, buried up to their necks in their own crap that spews from their mouths like fire hydrants. The only way to justify this anger and frustration I'm feeling is to give an example of the blasphemy. I was on a field trip with one of the tards, and this is what he said to me. He told me about how he doesn't want to focus on his current girlfriend because he keeps thinking of how much better he can do. He then continued to state his HUGE list of standards, which includes but is not limited to beautiful, smart, and "knows how to please a man". Honestly, I'm a guy and most times I would laugh something like this off. When I did, he remained completely serious.
Now, this would've been bad enough, BUT to top it off he even went as far as to say that he expects all of the above as well as complete loyalty from the girl, but that SHE SHOULDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE RECIPROCATED. I didn't know what to say, so on the outside I just smiled awkwardly. But on the inside, I felt something boil up within me, and now a couple weeks later I've felt it again and finally realize that it was blind rage.
On the less severe side, the two tards talk about not what they would do if they were rich, but what they will do when they are rich and have their own corporations like wealth is ascribed to them (again, the ego-centrism). It makes me sick. Even if they had the most remote sense or effort of humbleness, I would be a little more sympathetic, but they they act, it's as if they have gone into the negative on that side. And what make's me possibly maddest of all is the knowledge that any insult I could throw at them to try to keep their ego from drifting further into deep space won't even have the slightest effect on them. The only time that they're EVER the least bit humble towards me is when they're asking me a question that they don't yet have the answer to on a homework assignment. And then, in a dazzling flash, they're back to knowing everything in every subject matter and being the hottest things in the universe.
Like I said previously, it's not their wealth or intelligence that sickens me. I don't think more highly or lowly of someone at all based on wealth, and I support intelligence. It's the center-of-the-universe mindset and the complete narcissism, the complete know-it-all-ism that totally gets to me. It's the total lack of respect for others, especially women, and then the elaborately painted mask they put on for society to try to convince them otherwise. The remind me of The Portrait of Dorian Gray. It's as if their souls are old, bitter, and crusted on a tableau, but still they retain their youth and innocent appearance on the exterior. Like I said before, sickening.
P.S.:
For a while people talking to me about it made me wonder why I wanted to be better than them so badly. I didn't know quite why I wanted to outdo them in every single area possible. But now, after writing this document, I think it's a good vs evil type thing. I think I actually view them as evil and sinful and so all of the good in me just wants to totally triumph over them. I think that's what it is.
I'm going to stop with that part of the subject and focus on the other. I don't loathe the two tards for the reason that they are rich or smart; in fact, I actually really liked them before, until I discovered the real sides of them. Contrary to popular belief, through personal experience I have found that they are both immensely shallow and egocentric, buried up to their necks in their own crap that spews from their mouths like fire hydrants. The only way to justify this anger and frustration I'm feeling is to give an example of the blasphemy. I was on a field trip with one of the tards, and this is what he said to me. He told me about how he doesn't want to focus on his current girlfriend because he keeps thinking of how much better he can do. He then continued to state his HUGE list of standards, which includes but is not limited to beautiful, smart, and "knows how to please a man". Honestly, I'm a guy and most times I would laugh something like this off. When I did, he remained completely serious.
Now, this would've been bad enough, BUT to top it off he even went as far as to say that he expects all of the above as well as complete loyalty from the girl, but that SHE SHOULDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE RECIPROCATED. I didn't know what to say, so on the outside I just smiled awkwardly. But on the inside, I felt something boil up within me, and now a couple weeks later I've felt it again and finally realize that it was blind rage.
On the less severe side, the two tards talk about not what they would do if they were rich, but what they will do when they are rich and have their own corporations like wealth is ascribed to them (again, the ego-centrism). It makes me sick. Even if they had the most remote sense or effort of humbleness, I would be a little more sympathetic, but they they act, it's as if they have gone into the negative on that side. And what make's me possibly maddest of all is the knowledge that any insult I could throw at them to try to keep their ego from drifting further into deep space won't even have the slightest effect on them. The only time that they're EVER the least bit humble towards me is when they're asking me a question that they don't yet have the answer to on a homework assignment. And then, in a dazzling flash, they're back to knowing everything in every subject matter and being the hottest things in the universe.
Like I said previously, it's not their wealth or intelligence that sickens me. I don't think more highly or lowly of someone at all based on wealth, and I support intelligence. It's the center-of-the-universe mindset and the complete narcissism, the complete know-it-all-ism that totally gets to me. It's the total lack of respect for others, especially women, and then the elaborately painted mask they put on for society to try to convince them otherwise. The remind me of The Portrait of Dorian Gray. It's as if their souls are old, bitter, and crusted on a tableau, but still they retain their youth and innocent appearance on the exterior. Like I said before, sickening.
P.S.:
For a while people talking to me about it made me wonder why I wanted to be better than them so badly. I didn't know quite why I wanted to outdo them in every single area possible. But now, after writing this document, I think it's a good vs evil type thing. I think I actually view them as evil and sinful and so all of the good in me just wants to totally triumph over them. I think that's what it is.
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