An Additional Post

Ok, I can't help but blog about this. I'm rather confused about this once again, and I have been ever since it happened on Halloween. So I hadn't talked to this girl for months; she was a very nice girl, just it seemed like she'd changed from a person I really liked and admired to someone else. Sometime in October, she texted me though, saying she missed me, and I honestly missed her too. I knew my friend had an upcoming Halloween party, so I asked to see if she wanted to go with me, and she did. So, in the evening on Halloween we picked her up and drove to the friend's party. For the first ten or so minutes we were there we didn't talk much because it had been so long since we had last hung out or had a conversation together. Finally, we started talking and I realized she hadn't really changed much. Inside, she was still the same girl I knew all along.
So pretty much the entire night, which was about 4 or 5 hours, we stuck together, talking virtually the entire time to each other alone and staying away from the crowd. Then about an hour or so before we had to leave, we both became very tired. So we sat on this couch in a room beside the main party area that had music and she leaned against my shoulder. I put my arm around her, and we pretty much spoke silently on and off until we had to go.
That night was truly amazing to me. First, I discovered that she really is the same person I had always known, and second, we pretty much kind of clicked. Just what goes up, must come down. Later in the week I asked her if she had felt something there, and I don't remember her answer. I'm pretty sure it was a yes, but there were strings attached somehow, so I didn't press it further. And then, as quickly as it had happened, it ended. We ceased talking to each other; I don't think I've talked to her since, which is sad. I've always liked her, secretly and/or openly, and she's told me that she liked me for at least some period of time in the past.
What really bothers me though is I really still don't know the truth about that night. I don't know whether it was just superficial or something deeper, because we'd been friends ever since I came to Indiana two years ago. If it was something deeper, I have no idea whether it was mutual or not. Just not knowing is enough to make me wonder still to this day.